HAPPY 87 SAD 87
Just the other day after i did an entry about our 87th Anniversary,
i felt lost.
I was tossing my petite frame on the bed.
Kept on thinking about the number 87.
Gosh!
That word came to my mind.
87
Suddenly, i was so scared of the two numbers.
I realised how far me and Enell had gone through our journey together.
Seriously, i didn't think that we have been together for that long.
From the day we started our education in Ngee Ann Poly, the day we graduated, the day i started working and he started entering NUS, till the day he ended his study at NUS and now working.
Double Gosh!!
I started wondering, are we going to keep on counting the months till i aged?
87....soon it'll be 100, just in a blink of time.
Will it stay at it is?
Continuing 101...110...120...150???
Ish.
I don't even wish to think of reaching 150.
Not that i do not like, but i wish it to progress in unity....
and with that i do not mind even if it reach 1000.
:)
As i was tossing in bed, i wondered again.
How amazing it is if unity is on the 1ooth.
But then again, it means soon.
Less than one and a half year.
I'm not financially ready.
That's another whole idea.
A simple low-affair is what i wish for.
No void-deck.
No gate-crashing of friends and relatives.
No hassle.
Just a blissful quiet moment in mosque or ROMM.
To make me feeling worse, an article of Diana Ser and James Lye appeared.
I'm so happy for them.
Finally, their going to have their own offspring.
I love cute petite Diana Ser.
She looks good with James Lye, who is working hard for their future.
Just like enell.
But, the thing is....they unite after 9 years together.
Seeing the number 9 made me lost again.
Mine is 7....
What i dreamt had gone out of planned.
Initially, when i was 17 I thought the perfect age would be 23-24.
By 25, i want to have my own kid so the difference between us is not far apart.
That's why people say daydreaming
As in reality, it's so far from true.
July i'll be 25.
I still can have a kid, provided sister gets pregnant soon.
By that time, i think i'll go berserk.
As much as i want unity,
I do not know if i'm able to go through things that comes with unity.
I wish i can be selfish.
Unity only for the two of us.
